Finding Motivation.

One of my New Years resolutions was to lose weight, specifically, I want to be blow 110kgs by end of year. One month into the new year and I'm not doing well. I'm still walking regularly but am missing the odd day heere and there. My diet could be better and when I do walk, I don't push as hard as I have done in the past. In short I am not in "The Zone".

There are a couple of  things that may be holding me back. Firstly, when I was enormous, I used to think that losing weight was the answer to all my problems. I could lose the weight, then finding friends would be easy, I'd find Miss Right, she wouldn't be turned off by my size and I would live happily ever after. In practice, losing weight is a help but not the answer to everything - I still have confidence issues to deal with. Secondly - I am addicted to sweets and junk food. My dad blames this on my mum drinking sweetened powdered milk when she was pregnant and when I was a baby but in reality, both my parents and three out of four grandparents are or were overweight and my issues could well be genetic.

The best motivation I have right now is news that my friend is getting married in November. My suil looks much better when I am a few kilos lighter. My challenge now is to get back into the zone. i'm still at a stage whereby I look at myself disappointed and swear that I'll start my diet tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes. Hopefully getting this off my chest is the catalyst for getting to tomorrow.